Monday, February 7, 2011

SOPHIE’S JOURNEY PART 3

I would call this next phase “the silent months”. We knew J’s approximate due date but had no idea when the baby was born, if the baby was healthy, if it was a boy or girl. J dropped out of contact and all we could do was wait. Wait for her to call. Wait to hear what was going on. Ultimately wait on God.

God was very faithful to us during this time. Whenever we walk an unknown journey, he seems to give us “sign posts” along the way. They are just enough encouragement or hope for us to keep walking, even though it seems foolish when you consider the circumstances.

Our “sign posts” started coming. First there was a card from some of friends with a kind note and a check to go towards our adoption. Then it was an e-mail from a friend in another state who had a dream about our 2nd adoption and felt an overwhelming sense to pray and e-mail some Bible verses as an encouragement. Then came another money gift, more e-mails.. Little messages at the right time to show us that God was with us, even though all we could do was wait.

I held this Bible verse close to my heart during these months.

The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of all the earth.
He never grows weak or weary.
No one can measure the depths of his understanding.
He gives power to the weak
and strength to the powerless.
Even youths will become weak and tired,
and young men will fall in exhaustion.
But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint. (Is 40: 28b-31)

As I trusted God, new strength would be waiting for me. In fact after a few months had passed and we knew the baby was at least 2 -3 months old, we were given the option of putting in a request for another adoption and pursing a new avenue. We considered it, but we just couldn’t bring ourselves to go through with it. We knew in our hearts “baby sibling” (that is what we called him/her) was to be part of our family. God would help us to not grow weary or faint of heart if we waited on him and trusted. We determined not to give up on this child despite circumstances.

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